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Sunday, February 24, 2008

Boring weekends...

Hai..it's a boring sun again and here I m..typing this boring entry..hahaha..

Fri-
Had a sudden urge of going to ktv but sad to say, cant find any kaki. Hai..so went to buy dinner and went home after work. *Yawn...* Spend the night at home watching tv..eating..practising keyboard...

Sat-
This is always the day which I look forward to every week!! Coz..it's keyboard class!! Received a call from optical shop to ask mi go down and have a look of the frame, which is different colour from the one I have originally choosen (on thur). So went down and had my lunch at the food court at TB plaza (alone) before going for class.

Was very early when I reached school. Since all classrooms were occupied, no choice but to go downstairs and shop around. Coincidentally, saw hui yan at "This Fashion"!! Hahaha..she was early too! =D We both shop for about 20 mins before going up.

Kim was still having lesson with Sheena then. So, we sat outside and browse thru magazines. By then, shihui also arrived liao. Then, while browsing thru U-magazine, saw an article with yx, Kim, weiquan, edwin, xiao han, eric, xx and SOLER inside!! Coz FM had just signed SOLER as our artists. Hahaha...showed Kim his photo and he din even know he is inside lo!! So funny! Hee..

This week, we changed "Feng shui". Went to a bigger classroom. However, Got a scary feeling immediately I stepped into it. Maybe is because not used to such a big room. Huiyan still joking tat we have moved from a 3-room flat to a 5-room flat!!Hahaha..

Maybe is because of the "scary" feeling and the stress (coz we r supposed to play the song without a mistake this week), suddenly got stomachache!! Always had this problem when im nervous and stressed! Hai...but cant go toilet coz need to practise before Kim test us. No choice..got to bear with it 1st...

Then, im the 1st to get tested!! Aiyo..really nervous like hell! Coz I really dun wish to make a single mistake. So here I go...play..play...play...wow..really no mistakes sia! So happy towards the ending part...when SUDDENLY, kim say "go back to intro and repeat from top ". Wa lau..never tried that before.Tried very hard to stay calm..luckily..everything went on smoothly..*phew*.

When reaching the finishing part..he suddenly say "go back D minor". Can felt my hand shivering and sweating liao coz I never tried tat at home. hahaha...although I know tat is the actual sequence la. Finally, song ended. And, when the word "Ok, PASS!" came out from kim, really feel like crying. I know I may sound very kua1 zhang1 (dunno how to spell tat), but these words of encouragement are what keeps mi going all these while. Coz when everybody looks down on what you are doing and kept giving negetive remarks, these encouragement seems as important as gold! Really....

There was once yx msn mi and said I did improve and told mi as long as I work hard, results are sooner or later. I was in office at time. Broke down immediately i saw her msn. Really touched!Although it's just a few simple words, it's what I need most when im facing all the problems every now and then. =''') I know there is still a long..long way to go, and it's not going to be smooth, but I will try to be strong.

K...i know im naggy again....=p

Sun-
As usual, woke up around 11am+..eat my breakfast cum lunch..iron clothes..watch tv..practise keyboard and now..typing my blog. Hee..just finish listening my favourite Korean cd, now Joi's cd. How I wish life is as simple as this...

Suppose to meet Su teck, his friend and his cousin for a meet up today. But his cousin suddenly had something on, so got to postpone the meeting. As for what reason tat we need to meet up, dun wish to reveal it at the moment. Will keep u guys updated when the time is right...hee..hee..but hope everything will be successful ba! But I still have doubts on my abilities..but really like to give it a try. Jess...if u r reading this, you should know wat im refering to right? Hahaha..

Well, now I learn to have my own stand and thinking. Unlike the previous mi where I used to care a lot about what other's think. Dun wish to live under other's shadow and be a puppet anymore. I always remember this sentence from an important person.."Just go ahead and do what you want, as long as it doesn't hurt anyone. Life is full of uncertainties, u will never know what will happen tomorrow."

I used to do what others think Im "supposed" to do. But now, Im doing what "i think im supposed" to do. I have choosen a tougher route. But I have never regretted. The only regret i have is tat I should have taken this route earlier...well, its better to be late than never right? =)

And got to thank someone who had stand by my side all these while, listening to my sorrows and nagging. Jess..thanks gal!! =D Really touched by your email! Dunno what to say besides thanks...still thanks! =''') Let's jia u together k? =)

K...shall end here. If not I will go on and on non-stop...hahaha..

Thursday, February 21, 2008

我只好假装我看不到...

Wow...long time never blog liao! Sometimes, just not in the mood to blog.

Today is the 15th of the lunar calendar....meaning "official" ending of chinese new year.Hai...time flies....Din really did much during CNY. Stayed at home and rest/rot. hahaha...

Went lesson last night. This month's song is Chong2 Bai4 by Fish leong. Loved this song so much. And guess wats the best news?? Next month song is again one of my favourite song-街角的祝福!!!!!! *YEAH* So happy to see this song title displayed outside yx's classroom.

1st time I heard this song was few months ago at Tao. Its was sang by Meiting that night. Fell in love with it's melody..can say "love at 1st sight"!=) Since then, have been practising and tried singing during few audience nights. The more I sing, the more I love it.

Actually din really pay attention to its lyrics in the beginning. But now...the song's lyrics seemed so meaningful to mi. Some feelings and words are better to be hidden inside than spoken.
Sometimes, things just happened and it's just like a knife being stabbed into you heartlessly. Can only blame that I'm foolish...met the right person, but in the wrong place...at the wrong time...no matter how hurt I am, life still got to goes on. Memories might vanish over the time...but not the pain.

<<街角的祝福>>

词:戴佩妮 曲:戴佩妮

多少个秋 多少个冬
我几乎快要被治愈好
但还是会只因为一个重覆的话题
就无心自扰

也曾想过若真遇见
我们应该如何是好
我想我还是会站在某一个街角
不让你看到

只因为我不想打扰
只因为怕你解释不了
只因为现在你的眼睛里
她比我还重要

我只好假装我看不到
看不到你和她在对街拥抱
你的快乐我可以感受得到
这样的见面方式对谁都好

我只好假装我听不到
听不到别人口中的她好不好
再不想问也不想被通知到
反正你的世界我管不了

若不想问若不想被通知到
就把祝福留在街角