Busy...busy...

Just met my ex-colleague for lunch to catch up with them. Went to Koshinbo for the 1-hour buffet lunch....quite a wide variety of choices but too little time to finish trying all the food. Wasted...hahaha...

Have been busy preparing my theory test and worrying about my classes these few days. I can't remember when was d last time I ever studied so hard. Hahaha...

Last Sunday, I stayed at HQ till 2am. Dunno y I just feel like staying there and help out, as well as to practise my stuff. Perhaps is because this shall be the last week I will be there (most probably). It's a strange feeling...actually I dun dislike the place which I will be posted to, and new colleagues are quite nice people too. Just got this feeling of great attachment to HQ...maybe is because I have been there since the very 1st day of work. And most importantly, nice and fun people there.

This week will be a very stressful week for me. Besides having to cope with theory test, I will be having my last demo class, as well as 2-3 actual classes. Hope I will able to do my best. =)

Take care everyone!

Can't think of a title...

Initially, this blog served as a channel for me to pour all my sorrows, share my happiness and talk rubbish. I didn't expect anybody will be interested to read it. Hahaha...but really surprised that there are actually people I dun really know reading my blog! Thanks Anonymous and Ashley. Although I might not have seen u all before, but really glad to receive your comments and support! =)

This week has been quite a relax week for me coz no demo classes. But got to prepare for my theory test, as well as more demo and actual classes next week. Sad to say...im leaving HQ soon. Honestly, I'm a person who dun like changes. Once i got used to the environment/ people, making changes is quite challenging for me. I suppose is because im an emotional person. Now, I have already "fallen-in-love" with the environment and people at HQ. Just afraid that I might not be able to control my tears on my last day there. I will miss everyone...everything there...esp my trainer. If not for her, I dun think I will ever improve my language. Although she is very strict and sometimes- very fierce, just dunno y I kind of admire her. Please dun get the wrong ideal ok? Is only trainee admiring and respecting a trainer...no other meanings! Hahaha...Perhaps this is something call fate.

A new trainee has came in since yesterday. Her fluency in the Language in much better than me...from the way she speaks. That inevitably put some pressure on me. Nevertherless, I wun give up, this will only drive me to work even harder and buck up. I know where I am standing...but just like what other colleagues and my trainer told me, it's never too late to learn, and it's better late than never! Will always remember that...Anyway, this new gal has been quite friendly and we can get along quite well. =)

Ever since i started this job, I have almost devoted 95% of my time in it. I have been doing research online in the relevant areas, practising and even thinking of work at home. So much so that I even dream of my work. But I dun find it tedious. Actually, to my surprise, I dun know where do I get all my energy from. Perhaps this is where I should be doing long time ago...perhaps this is what I call my passion....

Take care everyone! =)

Thanks Anonymous

Recently, an anonymous had left some comments on my blog...very encouraging and meaningful. Although I'm very curious to find out who he/ she is, I respect his/her decision for not revealing his/ her identity. =) Anyway, thank you!

The comment on my previous entry was really..really.. very encouraging! In the past, I'm those who really mind how people think of me (i.e. very sensitive). I care a lot about how people look at me, how people treat me. For example, if I see someone's face turned black, I will question myself did I made him/ her angry..every action i took I will wonder what will people think. But soon, I realised that if this attitude persist, I will be at the losing end. This is because people will feel a "wall" between me and the others. So now, I'm trying hard to do whatever I want, as long as it does not hurt others. Since then, I find life more meaningful and easier to blend into different kinds of friends.

However, habit dies hard. Sometimes, I still "restrict" myself from talking to others. Just like last week, my trainer came into the room while I'm doing the materials. She was there doing somehing else. I wanted to chat with her so much...but I just don't have the courage. I'm afraid that she might find my conversation stupid..unneccessary. So...I kept quiet throughtout. I know I have to overcome this communication barrier...really have to....

Have been preparing my theory test last night, and I suddenly had this funny ideal...if I fail my theory test, den I will not have to leave HQ so fast....coz................

I really can't bear to leave........

A mixture of feelings....

Time flies...and soon, i will be taking my theory test. It's a mixture of feelings...lot of sadness plus a bit of excitement and nervousness...that's because, after theory test, I will "graduate" from HQ...meaning that I shall move on to my centre, leaving all my nice colleagues and my dear Trainer. But anyway, that will happen sooner or later. Just tat I really need some time to adapt to.

This week has been a very challenging week for me. Stress level has been quite high...maybe it's because I want to do my best. And it's quite frustrated sometimes that I made the same mistakes over and over again! I know I shouldn't have done that...but I just did it unconsiously. When I realised it, it's too late. The most frustrating thing is...I just can't put my ideas into words at certain occassions. Think i really need to buck up on that. I'm considering to take up some courses to upgrade myself once everything is on track.

Nevertheless, thanks everyone who is there for mi! =)

*Touched*

Today, I had my 2nd demo. After the 1st demo, I was quite stressful as I know I din do well tat round. So, I put in all my effort to bring out my best this time round. Luckily, everything seems to go on smoothly today, however, there r still a lots of improvements to be made...

Last night, I stayed back in the centre to practise untill 10 pm+. My trainer saw me and to my surprised, she voluntarily came into the room and went through everything with mi. I was quite shocked..simply because..she appeared to be the very cool and strict type of trainer. And indeed, she is well-known to be the strictest and fieriest trainer there. And that's not all, knowing that I had not taken my dinner, she went out and pass mi a cup nooodle!!! Gosh...my tears almost rolled down!! I'm really touched. =''') But i refused to accept and insisted tat i will go home and eat...although tat will be like 11pm+ by then. So she went back to her room.

And...when I was about to leave...guess wat? She bought a packet of hot bee hoon, grab my hand and hand it over to me. I was really lost for words at that point of time...little did i expect a strict trainer like her to do such action. Really feel like hugging her and say a big thank you!! She has been always there to help mi ever since I joined. Although she will not hesitate to correct mi straight into my face sometimes...but I will prefer she do this rather than to talk behind my back, just like what some people did in my previous company.

Training has been quite intense...coz it's running out of time somehow. But I'm really really glad to meet people like my trainer, and also many other nice colleagues.

Tml will be my 3rd demo. I CAN DO IT!! =D

BACK!!!!

I'm finally back!! Gone "missing" for such a long time....sorry.

Was too occupied with my new job recently...seldom log in nowadays. I'm very happy that I fnally found a job I really enjoy! Although pay not as good as previous job, I have NO regrets joining this organisation. =)

Now...it seems like I'm enjoying every moments of life..truly enjoying. Finally saw the light in my life. That's how important a career is. Previously, a career is only a job to earn a living...wake up..prepare yourself for work...reach office like a zombie...walk to your cabin...sit in front of the computer...thinking of wat to eat for lunch later...thinking of whether to do OT... can't imagine myself doing these for the past 3 years...

I'm now always full of energy for work. Maybe is because this is truly wat i like...tats y now, things seems to go in the opposite way...I'm quite early for work everyday, can skip my lunch coz too concentrated on wat I'm doing...can't bear to go home even though people kept chasing mi home...going through my work materials even when I reached home...i can say this is not d usual mi. But like I say...when you finally knows wat you want, u'll go all out to get it!

However, it's not easy taking d 1st step...sometimes, I will also have my ups and downs in this job. Not that I do not like d job, it's exactly the reversed. I like it soooo much that want everything to be perfect and I must do my best. When things does not goes on smoothly, I tend to blame myself...and tat is exactly wat happened yesterday. But I'm glad all colleagues, esp my shifu encouraged mi! =) I'm back to normal again today, and enjoy doing wat im doing!! I wun let the past hinder mi. Instead, I learnt from the past, improve myself and move on....=) I believe this is wat my shifu and other colleagues wan to see.

Well, no words can describle my feelings now...tired everyday..but very fruitful. Tml is Good Friday...holiday. Think it's the 1st time in my life I dun look forward to holiday. This will mean that I miss out a day of fun at work...hahahaha...

Never at any moment I have the intention to leave this job...at least for time being....seems like office job not really suitable for mi anyway.

Cheers everyone...life is short..got to enjoy every moments of it. =)

*smile*