Deon...Me & My Dreamz

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Thursday, September 27, 2007

At last...

Finally, the big day is over. And I promised I will give everyone an answer about the big day right? Actually, big day = audition la...went audition last night. 1st time in my life...the whole atmosphere was so tends and nervous! Saw everybody sitting in groups, practising when i reached! So stressed!!!

Luckily, i was there with 4 of my friends. All of us signed up for audition. Due to the tends atmosphere inside, I decided to take a walk outside...met Ling at the door step! So relief when I saw her leh!! Hee...

Quickly ate my bread (ard 7pm) and practised my song outside...but end up chatting with Ling! hahaha...den, saw PP coming. She is one of the judge for the day. But she's very friendly so I was not so stress seeing her. =)

Soon after, hua jie begin to mark attendence for all auditionists. It was den i realised tat my name was printed out wrongly on the list! *faint* (all names was printed in chinese characters)
The middle character of my name was missing!! But luckily, when they say out the song title, I knew it was mi...

After marking attendence, those who know their keys can have a half hour break, while those who need to "catch keys" can do so...so...i went outside again to practise...and practise..*nervous*

Finally, the 1st auditionist went up...followed by the 2nd one...the 3rd one...............and..guess wat? I was the last 7th (or 8th) auditionist!! Total there were 37 auditionists!!! It's really torturing to wait there...keep humming while others were singing to keep my voice "open"...from 7.30pm hum till 10pm +!!!! *sign*

And finally....it's my turn...went up shivering...but tried very hard to calm down (say is always easier than done!)...and tried very hard to focus on my song. It's really...really a different feeling going up as an audience and going up as an auditionist! I knew few of my notes were "jumped"...but I really cannot control coz was extremely nervous! Tried to hold mike with one hand but not possible as it was trembling so much! *sign* At last...finished the song...*phew*
Ling said not so much mistakes made...was quite pleased to hear tat!! =D But I knew I was not as good as some others...some are really good! But I already did my best liao...so whatever the outcome is...at least Im wun regret. (Of course la..i wish to get into the 2nd round! =D) Results will be out this sat!!! *pray hard*

Honestly, I never expect myself to participant in such audition. I also din expect myself to learn singing in the past...is becoz of some factors which leads mi into this interest. Maybe this is an "escape" method for mi...when people faced crisis or major problems, some will choose religions as a 解脱 (dunno wats the english word for it). I have personally see some of my friends who converted into christianity after encountering majoy family problems.

As for mi, I choose singing as a 解脱. I enjoy imagine myself as the lead actress of the song and tell my story thru the lyrics..this is the only way where i can forget who I am and throw all my troubles out of the window. Tats the reason why i took up singing...=)
But sad to say, I din really get the support from my family. They were all against mi taking up singing lessons...but since I have made up my mind, I decided to go for it despite their objections.

But I'm lucky to have the support from my teachers and friends...I sincerely wanted to thanks those who have helped mi (directly and indirectly) all this while...esp YX!! No words can describle my gratitude towards u. Maybe many people may think tat I'm exaggerating. But to me, she is someone who is inspiring and someone who is willing to share her experiences...and also someone whom i can share my troubles with...thanks yx! *muacks* =p
And also, i will like to thanks Ling!! This friend of mine has always been so supportive! Although I knew i can be irritating at times when I'm troubled and stressed. But thanks for your patience and tolerant! =') She din even take her dinner last night and rushed over to support mi for audition! *touched*

Also, not forgetting friends like JL, MY, YL, k music & YB...u guys are really great! Really lucky to meet friends like u all....

Will like to apologise to all my friends if i have neglected u recently...coz Im really stressed up with this audition...to some people, this audition may be a "not-so-big-deal" event. But to me, it's extremely important.

So, at last the 1st round is over. And guess wat? Just ate Macdonald's McWings!! *yummy*
Actually wanted to eat KFC hot devils. But the outlet is closed for renovation! =(
Coz my throat is very sensitive to fried and spicy stuffs. Can immediately see the "effect" after eating all these and it could last quite a while...so have been avoiding this for quite sometimes le. Finally got to eat today!! hahahaha....in fact, my throat is already not feeling right now...fast right? *sign*

k...this shall be all! Now...my only hope is to know the results asap....and hopefully..................=)

Friday, September 21, 2007

A song to share...

到底有谁能够告诉我-郭富城

到底有谁能够告诉我
要怎样回到从前
有你在我身边
拿生命换都情愿

到底有谁能够告诉我
要怎样回到从前
随风作流浪的梦
和你再相逢

请你告诉我
是谁说最坚强的承诺
如今却变得脆弱

请你告诉我
是谁说要永远的等候
如今让我孤独地走

轰轰烈烈风风光光
我又曾经拥有甚麽

来来去去过过往往
真心付出结果又如何
请告诉我

Honestly...my eyes are all wet while typing this entry, listening to this song at the same time.
Liked this song very long time ago. Recently, heard Superstar Chen Weilian singing this song in another version on 933...very touching also.
This song reminds mi of someone used to be very close to mi. But she is no longer with mi now...
We were only 4 years old then...I still remember clearly how we climbed onto the table and search for crackers while mama went market.And how managed to climb over the gate to get to the kitchen...also remember all the sufferings u had in hospital. All these memorise and feelings have been inside mi all these years. Although so many years have past, I have never forget u...my dear twin sis. I think of you whenever I'm sad, happy, disappointed, excited....but I just try not to mention anything regarding u to mama...I know she will be very sad whenever I mention anything about u. All I can do is to look at the photos we took last time...and cry on my own. How I wish I can turn the clock back....back to the times when we were together..

到底有谁能够告诉我
要怎样回到从前
有你在我身边
拿生命换都情愿...

请你告诉我
是谁说要永远的等候
如今让我孤独地走

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Stressed...

*Sigh* Dunno y the nearer that day is...the more stress I felt...and the more nervous I m. But I'm really glad to have the continuous support from my best friend-Huiling, my classmate-Shu Ling & last but not least-K music!! Thanks guys! =)
For those who r reading this and still dunno what is going on and what is that "big day", I promise I will give everyone an answer after this "big day".Sorry la...coz I really dun wish to announce it yet...=p
Had lesson yesterday...1st time meeting other 2 students. I always get nervous whenever I'm singing in front of people whom i never met before. So...*sigh*
Recently have been so stressed with so many things...stress till pimples all came out le!! *faint*
Now, I only have one wish...and that is...eat KFC after that important day!! *slurp* Received KFC vouchers few days ago and saw my favourite hot devil drumlets is out again!! Luckily, those vouchers are valid till oct!! *yeah* Must control...control...also controlling my craving for chocolate waffles!!! *OMG* Pass by the waffle section at Q-bread everyday and the smell is soooooooooooooooo niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! *yummy* But YX say chocolate is a "killer".So..must control...must control...
Wanted-to-eat-so-much stuffs:
1) KFC's hot devil drumlets
2) Chocolate waffles
3) Chocolate cakes
4) Old Chang Kee's spring roll
Wow...although I cant eat them now for time being, but i felt much better after listing them out!! hahahaha..k...k...enough of all nonsense le...time to go back to work!
See u..=)

Monday, September 17, 2007

1st Time In My Life...

2 things took place over the weekend...and is my 1st time encountering these 2 things..
Remember in my previous entry, I mentioned I did not strike tat 4D number? And mama told mi not to give up...so I bought i-bet on this number instead.And guess wat?? I REALLY STRIKE!! hahaha...1st time in my whole life striking 4D!! BUT, it's only consulation and I only bought $1..meaning tat I only won $3..better than nothing la! hee...(Don't be mistaken k..I'm not addicted in buying 4D, for fun only) =D Tats all for 4D...
2nd "1st time" event-
Last sat was my 1st performance at Tao with YX, Ayden, Kim and Edwin. Had lesson before that. I was late! All because of the road closure at Chinatown mid-autum event...hai...run like hell...trying very hard to catch my breath when i reached school! *sigh* After lesson, we went straight to Tao and had dinner...(We had dinner at food court there la...not Tao).
They went up stage 1st, while mi and another student waited upstairs...think about 1 hr later, we were instructed to wait near the stage...and...the worst thing I feared really happened!!!
It started to rain...*faint*(btw, it was an open stage. Rain= cancel performance)...no words can describle my feeling at tat moment!! Really disappointed and sad coz I have looked forward to it so much but end up...and this was my only chance to performance in front of "real" audience before the big day comes (wat big day? hmm... shall not mention it 1st ba). The sky is crying...so is my heart...
Luckily, after a short while, I was invited up 1st...and strange enough, while edwin was singing Qing2 Tian1, the rain stopped!! Really fortunate!!
After edwin, it was my turn...*nervous* Although this was not my 1st time performing in front of audience, but it was my 1st time singing at an outdoor place like this!! The 1st song I sang was "wo zhen de shou shang le"...but I cant really hear my voice. I keep telling yx I cant hear my voice, depsite her adjusting my mike to the loudest! But she kept telling mi she can hear...was it something wrong with my hearings? *sigh* Ayden and YX continued with a duet...and it's my turn again..my 2nd song was "Hao3 Ting1"...was not please with my own performance tat night...know I can do better than this...but think is because is my 1st time performing at a place I'm not familiar with...tats y...*hai*
My classmate was invited up soon after...i must say she really sang well!! Her voice is really powerful...Needless to say..I'm more disppointed in myself after hearing hers...But i will Jia you de...Im not born with any talent in singing...but i believe i will improve thru more practise...and practise...and practise...just tat i will take more time and effort than those who r born talented. =)
But overall, it was a very good experience for mi!! And I really...really..appreciated Yx for giving mi the chance to perform with them. Tell you a little secret ba..last month when Yx told mi i will be performing with them, i actually cried when i told mama..i cried because i was too happy!! I never expect i got a chance to perform together with them...=') And hope i still got the chance to perform again next time!
Wow...think this is the longest entry I ever wrote!! hahaha...sorry...too excited! =p
Shall end here ba...it's 2.35pm..and i haven eat...*hungry*
Btw, thanks everyone for visiting my blog!! I know some of you have been reading it regularly, it's just tat u have problem leaving comments due to some technical difficulties ya..hahaha...anyway, i'm glad to know tat at least I'm not talking to myself!!
Bye!!

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Earthquake!!

Wow..this was the 2nd time i felt earthquake in Spore! But this time was a serious one...
Was on my way to class last night.When i was about to step inside the building, mama called mi. Was quite surprised coz she dun usually call mi at this time. Guess wat she asked mi? "Did u buy 2507 har? Today opened already leh!" *faint*...I just stopped buying last Sun, Did not buy last night and it already came! *sigh* Anyway, I'm not tat disappointed coz I dun think i have 4D luck...hahaha..so hang up with mama and rush upstairs for lesson lo...
YX was having lesson with SL and HT, while 2 students were practising next door..so I sat on the sofa at reception area and waited. Suddenly, i felt that whole sofa is shaking! At first i tot i was not feeling well..but then, i saw the "welcome" sigh on the door shaking from left to right...and worst, those sign board on the floor started moving too!OMG! Something is wrong! My 1st reaction was to call mama coz just in case the building really collapse and this shall be my last chance talking to her.(yes..i always have negetive tots).Soon, all the others rushed out of classroom and YX said is earthquake and instructed us to go downstairs. Lucky (or rather unlucky), we r at level 7...
Saw almost all people from my building were already downstairs.Guess they felt the effect too! Really scary...we stood downstairs for about 15mins and went back for class when things seems ok soon after...left school around 9pm.
Sometimes, things are really hard to predict...u'll never know what will happen the next min. I always wonder, if I'm leaving this world at this moment, will I have regrets? And my ans is yes..my biggest regret will be not able to accomplish what i wanted so much. As for other regrets....hmm...
So, I have already told my best friend, Ling about my last wish, just in case i left this world suddenly one day.And hopefully she will help mi to fulfill it. (very negetive right? Yup, tats mi)
k...tats all for today!
This sat will be a very important day for mi...so...hope everything turns out fine la! Hee..=)
See u...

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Failure-Once again...

*Sigh*...Dunno wat happened recently. Din really performed my best last night...maybe is bcoz the more I wanted to do my best, the more presure I gave myself,and the worst I became. Think is time to review and do some self-reflection le...
But one thing im glad that 1st time I got to sing 5 songs coz it was not crowded last night.=)
However, after listening to my recordings...found tat all 5 songs were......*sigh* (despite all practise). Things are really hard to predict for live performance like this. So, no choice...got to practise more...and more....(esp my pitching). Anyway, i must say i did enjoyed myself last night la, coz people there are all familiar faces.=)
k...tats all about it. Waiting to have lunch now...people reading this, please make some noise in my comment section leh...everytime it seems like im typing for myself to see only...boring leh! hahaha...

Monday, September 10, 2007

Time Flies...

Time really flies...it's Mon again...*sigh* BUT, something to cheer mi up!! It's audience nite again!! *yeah*...
Had lesson yesterday instead as I cannot make it on the 26th, because...hmm..I'm going for...hmm..think better not say 1st la.(Make a guess) hee..
Yesterday after lesson, had practise with Edwin and Kim. Although i felt tat my throat cannot take it anymore, but I still struggle very hard coz no time to practise with them another day le...no choice but to drink more water...we finished around 7pm+...Im soooooooooooo hungry and tired when reached home...but it's all worth it. =)
I really scare I will lose my voice today...but till now..everything seems ok la..*phew*
Ok...got to work liao...BYE! =D

Friday, September 7, 2007

Weekends is here!!!

Yeah...it's finally Fri. Have been quite a tedious week (mentally)...
Later will be going shopping with mama after work. Felt very guilty for not spending much time with her recently...so, will try to go out with her whenever possible. =)
Besides the usual house chores to be done this weekend, will be going back sch on sun to practise for both audience night, as well as Tao. 1st time singing at Tao, very nervous but hope everything will goes well next week! =D
Hmm..tat shall be all. Very hungry now...no strength to type further..hee..
Bye!

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Human...

Finally, some spare time to write an entry...have been busy for the past few days..
As usual, went lesson last night (which I looked forward every week). Enjoyed it very much...
However, I found that I'm not improving much recently. So...got to work harder..no choice...I started learning late. *sigh*

Actually, got to know something recently, which I dun wish to blog about...but this incident made mi realise something...or rather, made mi disappointed...
If I ask u, wat is the scariest animal on earth? Think I will probably get ans like tiger, lion, crocodile etc. However, i personally realised tat the ans is actually human.
Of course, I dun refer to all humans. But just dunno y some human can be scary...
Really dun wish to go on further....
All I wanted to say is...i really...really hope that whoever friends i met(in the past or future), they are facing mi with their "real face", and not wearing a mask. I'm always treating people with the real mi...but y should they (or intend) to wear a "mask"? *sigh*
k..sure end here. Hope to blog about something happier next time round...