Blues...

My MSN nick today-Deon-->Demoralized-->Depressed-->Disappointed...
What happened?
As usual, I sang 3 songs last night. But it was my 1st time partnering with Ivan and Sherman. Before going, my 6th sense told mi something wrong is going to happen...true enough, almost everything does not go smoothly.*hai*
At first was technical difficulties,so much so that hua jie and keith need to change the keyboard.
Subsequently,was my part...went up sang the 1st song-wo3 deng2 ni3. Had a hard time matching the keys..i sounded so extra but i tried very...very hard to keep myself on track. Think maybe bcoz im nervous...everything just went.........*hai* So, there goes the 1st song *sad*
Ivan was very good. Coz he is not familiar with the 2nd song i wanted to sing, he brought his guitar down to practise with mi while others were singing. But I decided to sing another song, hoping that nothing goes wrong this time...however,the same problem happened. It got nothing to do with Ivan and Sherman...im the one who keep making mistakes...it's so de-moralizing...so, there goes my 2nd song.
Actually dun wish to sing tat jiang mei qi's song again as i wanted to try some other song, but after doing so badly for the 1st 2 songs, decided to sing something that im more comfortable with.So, I sang qin1 ai4 de ni2 zhe3 me4 bu2 zai4 shen1 bian1 again...i can say this is much more better than my previous 2 songs.*hai*
Din stayed till the end of the show, left about 10.40pm..with disppointment...disappointed in myself...blame myself for not preparing enough...
ok...shall end here...really no mood to continue...but despite all these,i will never give up in singing.I just need sometime to recover(maybe few days)...i will be back on my feet next month!! I know there's still a long way to go...but i will hang on to it...
It's time to go home practise..having lesson tml...